Sadyang..

Isa lang naman ang aking pangarap,
Pero bakit napakailap.
Gusto ko lang naman sumaya,
Pusong sanay busilak, sinalo ng duda.

Noong Puso'ng nagliliyab,
Ngayon ay pagod at basag.
Namimilipit sa sakit,
Ngunit di man lang makapalag.

Di na mapapawi ang sakit na dulot,
Laging naman kasing sinisindihan ang galit at poot.
Hinayaang mautas,
Pinabayaan magdamag, Ngayon puso ay butas.

At kahit anong sigaw di maririnig,
Mata kong laging dilat ngayon ay ipipikit.
Mga salitang napakawalan,
Nagmula sa galit ng dibdib.

Mga salitang tumatabas,
Na kahit magtago sa pader ay tatagos.
Sinabi na nila ngunit sasabihin ko nanaman,
Ang magtatanim ng poot, aani ng malakas na ulan.

Itigil na ang digmaan,
Wala naman mananalo, Puro talo lang.
Sadyang napaka ilap ng pag-ibig,
kapag puso natin dalawa naubusan ng pintig.

Sadyang....

in times like this.

Somebody ask me what I missed in us...
And honestly I forgot almost all about you aside from the...

Moments you stay calmed and smile no matter how bad the situation is."
-----Those times you never let me feel this way."

"The calmness of your face, those genuine smiles.
-----They just never fail to warm my heart in times of cold, in times like this."

Babe

"I fell in love with you because you weren't afraid to show me your imperfections.
I fell in love with you because you weren't afraid to take risks, to speak your mind and when I'm about to give up on everything, you tell me that it's all going to be fine.
I fell in love with you because you are always supporting me, finding the good in me, checking up on me.
I fell in love with you because you treat me with such a level of respect that I cannot even begin to explain.
I fell in love with you because I see myself with you until my life ends.

I don't know my future. I don't even know what I'll be doing next week., let alone next year. I can't make any promises but I do know one thing. No matter where I am, what I feel or I become, it will always begin and end with you.

Now I understand why God asked me to wait.

I LOVE YOU! Happy Monthsary ♥

-Nin"

Orphan

Ang buhay ko ay parang isang tula,
Tulad ng isang nauupos na kandila.
Pakikipaglaban ng apoy na pilit pinapatay ng luha,
At ng ang aking dukhang puso na isang ulila.

Hooooy

Binibini wag ka ng magtampo,
Sapagkat ako din ay nasaktan sayo.
Di ko naman sinasabing dapat patas tayo,
Ang nais ko lang sana kahit konti intindihin mo.

Akala ko ang kagabi masaya,
Ayos na sana lahat kaya biglang umiyak ka.
Ako ay nagulat at nadismaya,
Ako ba ay di sapat kaya ka lumuha?.

Pinilit mo akong magsalita,
Kahit wala at ayaw ko, napilitan mag sinungaling.
Alam ko kasi gusto mong marinig ang aking saluubin.

At ng ginawa ko ikaw ay biglang nagalit,
Binibini nakalimutan mo yata di ako katulad niya.
Kung siya madaling magtampo sa konti mong salita,
Binagsak na sakin buong langit at lupa ngunit ako parin ay nakangiti,  natutuwa.

Hindi lahat ng tao katulad niya,
May mga taong makasama ka lang ay sapat na.
Kahit masaktan ay bale wala,
Alam ko naman hindi mo intensyon, ikaw ay nadala lang bigla.

At pag uwi ko kagabi,
Biglang tumigil ang sandali.
Naalala ko wala na pala akong gas,
Kaya tinulak ko ang mabigat kung puso sa gusto kong landas.

Mabigat, nakakapagod,ngunit ako ay naka ngiti,
Kung di lang tayo nagkatampuhan siguro perpekto ang gabi.

At pag nabasa mo na ito, Sana ay maalala mo.
Ako lang din ay isang tao, Akala ko rin nga ako ay perpekto.
Ngunit ang layo ko pa pala, Sa isang libong pagkakataon, Sana ay patawarin mo.
Matulog kang nakangiti, Mahal ko. :)

This Love

This love is poison,
Consuming everything I own.
Those things from old battles I won,
I had to throw, now they're gone.

The hardest battle nearly ends,
I hate to admit and can't amend.
This battle I fought is already over,
Even before it even begins.

The vocal ending is near,
Hours I wait before the execution.
I am scared, Somebody Please help!

The Judge, The Jury

And just like a convict,
I await your verdict.

"I am innocent,
I have done nothing wrong."
-Screamed my heart in silence.
For the voice I make,
Won't even reach your ears.

Neenja

Hey cute Lady in yellow blazer,
Please take time to read this short letter.
These are just words that for you might mean nothing,
Yet I have to let it out from my brain.

I noticed your lower teeth is not aligned,
And yet I don't understand why you have a perfect smile.
I appreciate if you don't wear your glasses often,
So you won't notice me smile while watching.

A scar on your head,
A reminder that even a wound,
Can eventually be healed.

So raise your head up and smile,
I hope time will be on your side.
I can't offer anything but pray,
Peace of mind may always be with you beautiful lady.

Don't rush and negate the pressure,
They won't care anyway if you run and stumble.
Take your time and enjoy the feeling,
Love should be free, love shouldn't be demanding.

I wish one day I can touch your hand and hug you tight,
But I am not your boyfriend, I have no right.
A lady like you should be given respect.

Wherever you may go, Whatever you may do,
I just want you to know,
If you need sanctuary,
I'll stand waiting home for you.

Love is...

Love is not constricting,
It is willing.

Love is a choice,
Not a curse.

Love is mysterious,
There's no logic.

Love is caring,
Not regretting.

Love takes time,
It comes from a seed of liking each other.

Love is pain,
When the other one is hurt.

Love is a lesson,
We grow as we learn.

Love is a selfless lie,
We get hurt but we still smile.

Love is not perfect,
And that makes it beautiful.

Love is not all these I have listed,
Ofcourse these just came from my small brain and judgement.

😊

Monday Blues

Coldness erupted of what should have been warm,
Just minutes ago I thought it was divine.
If ever divine will struck the evils vile,
Would you you be so kind to also struck my fake smiles?

Please deliver judgment,
To end this long time torment,
The pain is not intense but consistent,
I don't know how much more cold has in it.

I'm no color blind but always seeing grey,
I don't understand why when we love them pure,
They turn their back on us.
Anger in my heart, No anger is my soul.

All the bullshits are now piling up,
Waiting to explode and yet I can't,
I can't  stop being nice for my mother raise me as I am,
So I'll keep on loving,
Until one day someone will return the feelings.

Hindi Lahat

Hindi lahat ng bagay narereplyan,
Minsan may mga bagay na kailangan lang iparamdam.
Mga madla pagtingin sayo ay nag-iiba,
Natatawa kung bakit ka isang tanga.

Bahala na silang humusga,
Sa akin ikaw ay mahalaga.
At ang pinaka-importante,
Makita ko ang ngiti sa yong mukha... :)