Good Night

I am so sorry, I apologize,
Lately, I ran out of jokes to make you smile.
And so I feel incompetent,
For what do I exist for, if I can't make you  happy at least for a minute...

Before I can't relate,
But I think this is the meaning.
When I see you not happy,
It feels so cold and lacking.

I can't stop thinking,
It's not that I am hoping,
It's just warms my heart,
----to see you smiling.

I miss the night we slept in one bed but didn't hug you tight.

It might be late for that, but always never for a "goodnight".

Sumpungin

Binibining sumpungin,
Dinggin ang aking panalangin.
Isip koy linawin,
Isipan ko'y sa mukha mo laging nakatingin.

Napapangiti bawat gunita,
Pagpunas mo sa akin kahapon,
Para akong hinulugan ng himala.

Na di ko na alintana malakas na ulan,
Kasi puso ko naman nag babaga.
Umaapoy sa tuwa,
Nakangiti sa loob ng helmet na basa.

At ngayong araw sa iyong pag uwi,
Dalangin ko'y iyong ngiti.

Na kahit sa munting sulat na ito'y may konting mapawi,
Sana'y mabawasan ang pagod, madagdagan ng ngiti.

:)

Roses are red,
Violets are blue.
No, I am not going to try,
Cliche words for you.

I know lately you have been thinking,
Things might have gone against your wishing.
I just want you to know,
When you're okay or not, here I will always be waiting.

I know you can do it alone,
I never said you couldn't.
I just offered myself if you need,
Maybe just this time, for a change. :)

We all have our own demons,
I am glad you can handle yourself well on your own.
Probably a sign,
We are riped by our experiences, not just by time.

I solemnly apologize if holding your hand makes you uneasy,
I will try my best to take it slowly.
But if I can never stop please forgive me,
It's just the first time I have met a fine lady.

I know sometimes I am silent and boring,
Believe me I have searched my mind from hell to the heavens.
I can't focus, my heartbeat is taking over,
When I touch your hand, I want it forever.

This is the first time I have written a real person's name,
But never will I hesitate, If it's you Bem-Bem.
This might just be a simple poem,
But sometimes simple is better than chaos and ruins.

If only I could give you a hug,

I want to hug you like it's the last.

A hug that will make you feel,

Safe in my arms.... 

Araw ng mga puso

At sa isang pintuan ako'y kumatok, 

Di alintana ang takot na baka ako'y muling mabagok.

Muling masaktan, Buong tapang na haharapin ang matarik na daanan.

Dahil kung hindi mo rin pagbubuksan, 

Sanay naman akong mag antay sa labas at mag bilang ng ulan.

Mga imahe sa hangin, mga mata mo'y may nais ipahiwatig sa akin.

Ngunit kung di sapat ang aking pag uunawa.

Ako sana'y patawarin. 

Ikaw naman ay tunay kong mamahalin.

Dahil ito ang araw, 

Araw ng puso natin. :)

Binibining Culver

Isang umaga nakitang nakatulala,
Malayo ang tingin kahit wala sa bintana.
Dating matingkad na ngiti,
Ngayon ay parang nauupos na kandila.

Sarili ko'y aking nakita,
Na parang isang salamin.
Magkaiba man ang mukha,
Alam kong dati ganyan din ang nadarama.

Ang pag ibig ay may dalawang mukha,
Pwede kang pumili, Pero hindi pwede palaging manatili sa gitna.

Sa panahong digital, Nawalan na ng lohika,
Ang mga tao ngayon masyado ng umaasa sa makina.
Kasabay ay nagiging uso na rin yata,
Kung sino pa ang nagmamahal ay siya pa ang mauulila.

Binibining Culver, sa sinabi mong lilipas din,
Puso mo ay unti-unting maghihilom rin.
At sa hinaharap muli mo mang maaalala ang pagtulo ng yung luha,
Sa panahong iyon tiyak ko naman ikaw ay tatawa.

Dahil ang buhay ay parang gulong,
Masakit at mahirap pag ikaw ay nasa ilalim.
Ngunit di mapipigilan ang patuloy nitong pag-ikot,
Lahat ng pait ay mapapalitan, lilipas din.

Farewell

This is where the line ends,
The rope that once bind our hearts has broke.

----And so, I set you free,
Fly your wings towards freedom and victory,
Fly your way, away from me.

'Til next time

This world is a bit messed up,

Some people taking love for granted, while some people are dying for it.

We pray in the church asking for the right one,
And yet we didn't ask ourselves if we are the one.

This marathon of unending chase made me realize.

Your longing for love will be the one who will make you hate.

The more you seek love,
The more you won't find it.

ever...

Hawakan

Tara na hawakan mo ang kamay ko,
At hihilahin kita, dadalhin sa paraiso.
Alam kung isang malaking digmaan ang minsan ng dumurog sayo,
Damdam ko ang sakit sa bawat letrang lumalabas sa bibig mo.

Nalasahan ang pait,
Na kahit papano hinahaloan mo ng konting kulit.
Ngunit di mo maitatago,
Napakalaking sugat nagbabakas sa iyong puso.

Mukha lang akong tahimik pero ako'y nakikinig,
Ginuguhit sa isipan bawat scenario na lumalabas sayong bibig.
Pinapakingan ang ingay at bawat pantig,
Sa tenga ko parang isang mapayapang awit ang iyong tinig.

Alam ko kahit sa panaginip impossible,
Natatawa nga ako minsan sa aking sarili.
Pano kaya buburahin ang sakit at hapdi,
Nagbabakas ang takot at poot sa iyo binibini.

Bakit nga ba di mo hawakan,
Ang aking kamay kahit isang beses minsan.
At sa iyo'y aking ipaparamdam,
Ang aking mundo ay masaya, Sana dito kana lang.


-jestarosa.blogspot.com
-10/3/2019

Sadyang..

Isa lang naman ang aking pangarap,
Pero bakit napakailap.
Gusto ko lang naman sumaya,
Pusong sanay busilak, sinalo ng duda.

Noong Puso'ng nagliliyab,
Ngayon ay pagod at basag.
Namimilipit sa sakit,
Ngunit di man lang makapalag.

Di na mapapawi ang sakit na dulot,
Laging naman kasing sinisindihan ang galit at poot.
Hinayaang mautas,
Pinabayaan magdamag, Ngayon puso ay butas.

At kahit anong sigaw di maririnig,
Mata kong laging dilat ngayon ay ipipikit.
Mga salitang napakawalan,
Nagmula sa galit ng dibdib.

Mga salitang tumatabas,
Na kahit magtago sa pader ay tatagos.
Sinabi na nila ngunit sasabihin ko nanaman,
Ang magtatanim ng poot, aani ng malakas na ulan.

Itigil na ang digmaan,
Wala naman mananalo, Puro talo lang.
Sadyang napaka ilap ng pag-ibig,
kapag puso natin dalawa naubusan ng pintig.

Sadyang....

in times like this.

Somebody ask me what I missed in us...
And honestly I forgot almost all about you aside from the...

Moments you stay calmed and smile no matter how bad the situation is."
-----Those times you never let me feel this way."

"The calmness of your face, those genuine smiles.
-----They just never fail to warm my heart in times of cold, in times like this."

Babe

"I fell in love with you because you weren't afraid to show me your imperfections.
I fell in love with you because you weren't afraid to take risks, to speak your mind and when I'm about to give up on everything, you tell me that it's all going to be fine.
I fell in love with you because you are always supporting me, finding the good in me, checking up on me.
I fell in love with you because you treat me with such a level of respect that I cannot even begin to explain.
I fell in love with you because I see myself with you until my life ends.

I don't know my future. I don't even know what I'll be doing next week., let alone next year. I can't make any promises but I do know one thing. No matter where I am, what I feel or I become, it will always begin and end with you.

Now I understand why God asked me to wait.

I LOVE YOU! Happy Monthsary ♥

-Nin"