Floating Status

Lay in your cards,
The one you've been holding on for long,
The one you've had reserved for this moment alone.

The one you considered your last resort,
The one that can either break or make you absolute.

Half full or half empty,
Doesn't matter for you are already messy.
For it is half full that is unsatisfactory,
But also half empty which can't be taken lightly.

If you are in the middle of the extremes,
You have committed a sin,
For people only respect a defeat or win,
You can't just play safe and choose to live in vain.

Soaked by sweat,
My pink shirt has now become violet,
I'll exhaust myself till I forget,
In this gym I'll stay, there's no regret.

What I only respect is my bed,
I don't want to, but I need to sleep.
Or either I want to sleep,
But I need to be awake.

I got to fulfill my promise,
That is my only special talent.

Spoken Poem: Katwiran

Katwiran, isang salitang tangi kong panlaban,
Sa bawat pagkakataong ako'y nahihirapan.
Lagi akong may katwiran,
Pero kahit meron nyan ang sakit di parin maiiwasan.

Pilit kong niloloko ang aking sarili upang ika'y kalimutan,
Ang isang araw ay dadaan,
Ngunit sa gabi ikaw parin ang nasa isipan,
Hiling ko lang sana ika'y tuluyan ng makalimutan,
Ng ako'y mabigyan katahimikan.

Sa bawat pagsara ng pinto sa puso mo,
Ay parang isang saksak sa puso ko.
Unti-unting bumabaon,
Na wari'y isang matulis na kutsilyo.

Pero okay lang nasanay na ako,
At kung sanay kana sa isang bagay ay parang wala nalang ito.
Araw-araw dadalhin ang kirot,
Titiisin sa bawat paghakbang papalayo.

Sana lang wifi ang gamit at hindi data,
Kasi ang wifi my limitado ang pag konekta.
Lagot ka kung naka data,
Kahit saan ka lalayo may signal parin kahit mahina.

Hindi issue kung sinong nauna,
Sapagkat kahit mabilis ang drag racer mahina parin sa kurbada.
Lalo na kung di niya alam ang daan,
Siguradong manga-ngapa sa kadiliman.

Ano ang iyong katwiran?,
Gaano kabigat at tila mas pinili mong panindigan.
At ang pag-ibig ay tinalikuran,
Lalong pinaglayo ang dalawang puso sa bakuran.

Ang puno ay matibay,
Kahit hindi diligan ay di tatamlay.
Ngunit putulin mo ang ugat at namamatay,
Nananatiling nakatayo ng walang buhay.

Ang katwiran mo ay aking irerespeto,
Sadya nga kasing magkaiba ang mga tao.
At sa bawat puso natin mayroon tayong gusto,
Nagkataon rin puso ko'y tigang pa sa bato.

Hey Yo Fatman : Real talk

They say when you're older,
The body is getting weaker.
I don't think that's the case,
They are just saving their lazy faces.

I don't hate any fat people,
What I hate is some of them not doing anything at all.
Then on social media trying to uplift themselves,
Posting quotes saying it's alright even if they get a disease.

The truth is at the end of the day they'll realize,
Heart attack, diabetes, high blood pressure respect no lies.
When they get bed ridden then that's when they cry,
"I should've live healthy or atleast exercise".

I am in no position to criticize,
I have to admit my body is still incomplete.
But then they spread propagandas,
Telling we are gays, not loyal, has a small penis, or something else.

The truth is they are just insecure,
They are lazy but they want to be equal.
And so if they can't get it then they'll destroy it.
Telling if a guy has abs or goes to gym then he is not legit.

Hey fat punk do you think we work hard to be with alot of girls?,
You're perspective is too shallow and naive.
We don't even have the spare time and money to give,
And for sex? Nah we've been there alot of times than you had been.
And we're so over it since we were teens.

Don't give me bullshit when you say you're too big,
I even witnessed a transformation from 180 to 160 pounds.
That person was working as a nurse,
And every after shift no matter how tired ---he grinds.

He gave me an enlightenment,
Everything is possible if you believe.
And if he can do it then why can't you?
What's your excuse mo-fo?

Why don't you join us in a game that winning is losing,
Losing fat is how we win.
So no matter how painful we hold,
Our body we mold.

Happy Sunday

Domingo sa buntag,
Ako nag andam para makakaplag.
Sa akong gipangita na kahayag,
Hinaot makita nako, Unta adunay damlag.

Muadto ko sa lugar kung asa mingaw,
Kung asa ang mga tao mag ginunitay ug kamot.
Lugar na walay gubot,
Bisan lang ug kadjot.

Ako musimba,
Kaniya makig storya.
Mangayo ug grasya,
Lord iapil nalang pud ako future asawa.

Kung ang kinabuhi usa ka duwa,
Bag-o lang ko napildi.
Pero dili pasabot ako Mu-rebelde,
Kay ako nagtoo sayup ra nga duwa ako naapilan,
Ug Labaw na sayup akong binuhatan.

Daghan mga tao akong nakaila,
Sa sulod sa mubong panahon daghan akong naka storya.
Pero the more I dig in deep,
Murag mga bataot paman sila.

O basin lang kaha lahi ra akong gipangita,
Basin anino sakong ex ang naa sa akong mata.
Lahi ra gyud diay siya,
Sayang manghupaw nalang ta.

Dili man hinoon taas ako standards,
Ang ako lang makita nako imo tinood batasan,
Ug kung kaya ba nako tunlon kung kita nya mag uban.

Ipakita lang kung unsa ka,
Ako'y bahala ug adjust para sa imoha.
Ayaw ug kabalaka,
Salig lang sako, Dili ko musugot masakitan ka,
Palangaon tika sama sa pagpangga ni mama sa akoa,
Ug kung unsa nako gusto alagaan akong manghud sa iya future bana.

Ako naghulat maimbento,
Kung asa pwede nata magkita sa atong damgo.
Kay matod pa sa bisaya na kanta.
"Maypa sa akong mga damgo,
Aduna pay ikaw ug ako".

Ug karong buntaga akong pangayoon,
Sa ginoo na makagagahom.
Ikaw unta iya ipakita,
Ang atong dalan mag cross na unta.

Photo: Violet Flower, Canon EOS 1000D
-By me

Just a Diary for 5/25/28

I tried to send someone a message that I guess her page is down.
I just enjoy reading some of her poems.
But I guess my messages were blocked.
I'm not just sure what's bad about what I said.
I said I'm not courting but we will come to that part sooner or later.
That means there was only you to me that is special.
But when I got home I got an awkward message.
I actually smiled and my heart jumped when You said it's fine.
Remember the question I asked when we were going home?.
But anyway it's sad the way it ends.
Because am a very nice guy. (You can ask my mother >.< )
So I always give what people want.
And I hope I will not become Mr. Doesn't care.


But anyway...

Roses are red, violet are blue,
I have my leave approved.
So out of town ----here I go.
And will be out for a day or few.
But will still be writing poem wherever I go.

Spoken poem: Ang huling Bira

Binilang ko ang tala at buwan araw-araw gabi gabi,
Ngunit di ko parin mahagilap at maisip kung pano ako sayo tatabi.
Masyadong mataas ang ating agwat,
Di ko man lang alam kung saan mag uumpisang magsukat.

Tila lahat yata ng aking ginagawa, sayo ay bale wala,
Sinubukan ko naman pero wala talaga akong magagawa.
Kung ang iniibig mo'y siya "eh di okay kayo na".
At ako namay lalayo at maglalaho na parang bula.

Wala kang maririnig sakin na kahit ano,
Pagkat di ako mahilig magsalita.
Kung ano mang hinanakit para sayo ay kikimkimin ko na,
Para naman kahit papano ikaw ay matuwa.

Araw-araw ako'y iiyak, matutulog, babangon, magtratrabaho,
Ano sa akala mo sakin may magbabago?.
Ikaw ay mahalaga sakin pero iba akong tao,
Wag mo ako itulad sa mga nakilala mo.

Alam kong akala mo- alam mo na ang mangyayari,
Eh pano yan di na ako katulad ng dati.
Di ko ipipilit sayo ang aking munting sarili,
Masyado kasing masakit kung ako'y mananatili.

Ang hiling ko lang sana makita mo sa kanya ang di mo nakita sakin,
Sana yayakapin ka niya at hahalikan sa tuwing ika'y natutulog ng mahimbing.

Pupunasan ang dumi sa pisngi mo sa tuwing ikaw kakain,
Ipagluluto ka ng masarap na ulam at mainit na kanin.

Mamasahe-in ang ulo mo hanggang ikay makatulog,
Tapos kakantahan ka ng paborito mong tunog.

Pupunasan ang iyong mga luha,
Papatawanin ka kahit magmukha akong bakla.

At higit sa lahat di ka iiwanan kahit kelan,
Di tulad ng ginawa mo sakin nung April 1.

Di ko man naabot ang iyong hinahanap,
Sigurado naman akong binigay ko ang lahat ng dapat.
Hanggang dito nalang muntik kong forever,
And I hope I'll see you never.

Surfer

It doesn't matter how long the clock will work,
For time is endless and never talks.
As well as how high the kite flies,
For it still needs a string to survive.

A child once asked,
What will I be when I grow up?.
I wanna be better than him,
For my parents doesn't allow a whim.

The world is mysterious,
So many theories and assumptions.
And I have too many questions,
A lot but not in millions.

It's never cold when you swim on water,
Get off, Feel the wind and you will suffer.

When you thought you had suffered,
You try to move on, you get battered.
Reminding you what you had before is far better,
Once you return, then the cycle never ends.

It doesn't take a genius to notice,
How our life is refurbished.
Yes, history repeats itself,
And we can't avoid the test.

The more we struggle,
The bigger damage when we stumble.
We shouldn't oppose the tides,
But we should ride it.

Foot Steps

I can't forget the first time I was running,
In the oval I was crying.
I admit it was a run for me fleeing,
Because of the reality that to me has been shrouding.

Now it has been a month and a half,
Sad feelings gone but I still can't laugh.
For every step I run I catch my breath,
The once called escape has become a habit.

Before I was running without direction,
Where stopping was not my intention.
Now I have a goal,
To surpass the distance I was able to run before.

The scale of how much we get hurt
is not by what kind of pain we have,
It is by holding it for too long in our heart.
Imagine a 250 ml glass of water,
You can sure carry it with one hand for minutes,
But not hours, days, nor months definitely years.

Every run I try my best,
Before I could barely reach a kilometer without stopping.
Now my goal is different,
I now hate single digits.

I made this poem to congratulate myself,
Reaching more than a hundred kilometers.
I'm not sure if my achievement is just normal,
But for a newbie like me that surely is a supernatural.

Kisdom na Langit

Ug ang kainit sa adlaw napawng,
Nahimong hapon ang saonang init na kaudtohon.
Ngit-ngit nga panganod sa adlaw nitabon,
And kahayag napulihan ug dag-om.

Sa akong pag naog sa silong sa akong payag,
Aduna koy nakita pero dili nako maaninag.
Imong kahayag sa akong mata nidamlag,
Akong mata dili angayan mutan-aw sa imong kaanyag.

Ako naglakaw sa dalan,
Wala sa huna huna, walay kapaingnan.
Ug wa ko tuyoa sa imo nabangga,
Wa ko kasagang, Mura kog matumba.

Akong kasing kasing naigo,
Murag player sa baseball musalo.
Sa bola sa gugma na gatuyok,
Maubos or mataas basta dili maghinoktok.

Ang gugma atong suliton,
Dili ta magdali sama sa marathon.
Dili ko gusto naay finish line,
Sa atong panag uban maynta pang lifetime.

Byers

My life is getting more ironic day by day,
My eyes seem to freeze unintentionally.
I tried to always smile like they say,
Kept that in mind In every step I made.

Though it's really ironic.
After our years has ended,
I thought it would left me dead.
The thing is I am enjoying it.

I can't replace the days in my scooter you ride,
Letting me go fast to it's limits.
All you did was close your eyes, hugged me and smiled.
Trusted me with your very life.

I might have deleted all videos which I made,
But the songs in it are forever on the internet.
Thoughts after thoughts I have come to the conclusion,
Our innocent love I murdered without intention.

It was me after all,
I got confident too much so I have to fall.
I promised to take you to the places you've never been,
Now that promised must be fulfilled without you in.

I have alot of questions for you,
Most of them are just "How well do you do?".
I won't be able to forgive myself,
If with him you are not loved enough like I did.

Now I've got to go,
I also have to find my someone new.
I don't wanna rush this time,
Since rush we had and in years it expired.

Yes no worries, I'll take my time,
I don't care how many will decline.
At the end of this journey I'll find the one,
Much better than the best of you, my former love.

Morena

Aduna koy kaila,
Nindot siya ug mata.
Wala siyay libog,
Magsige ra ug katawa.

Bag o lang mi nagkita pero murag dugay nami kaila,
Siguro tongod sabay kaayo siya.
Wala ko gatoo na in ani diay siya,
Abi kog laki siya saona.

Basin pud iya ra ginapakita iya ngipon na mahalon,
Kinural man gud intawn.
Pero angayan raman pud,
Murag artista sa Hollywood.

Iyang barog independente,
Lig-on kaayo ug dili siya arte.
Bright kabalo mo diskarte,
Idol nako siya pero sekreto rani.

Iyang nawng murag emoticon,
Kana bitawng kilay na naay gusto iingon.
Maynta magkauban mi sunod shift,
Ok ra gyud sako ma under sa imo,
Miss Hive lead...