Someday

Listening to a song in my room,
Headset in place, in full volume.
Repeatedly blasted to my ears,
A rock music to cover my tears.

I fear and dread all the days I haven't found you yet,
Or maybe I have but just didn't notice.
What do you look like?,
I am thrilled, I am excited.

No worries, I did expect wounds and hardships,
Just to get to you I'm ready for the test.
If being with you needs a cup of tears,
Then I'll make sure to fill the rivers.

Whatever way I think it all boils down to my ex,
If only she hadn't suddenly change,
I wouldn't have to get to this mess,
Though I can't blame her enough she also has her own basis.

It already happened,
Can't turn back time as they said.
There's a journey I have to go on first,
I want to dramatically improve myself.

To answer some questions,
I myself haven't thought about yet.
I need to go far,
For me to be able to see myself better.

And if someday I meet you along that journey,
I just hoped you haven't been from hell just like me.
That would hurt me double,
For I don't want you to suffer in vain or in any trouble.